In my life I have had many best friends, and sometimes it makes me sad that not one of them has been my best friend throughout my whole life. Actually I always feel sad about that, people come into my life as I need them, stay for a few months or years and then we eventually drift apart going separate ways. Perhaps thats why I am more closed off then some people. It is exhausting starting the friendship process, opening up getting close only to have to do it again a few years down the road.
Anyway just today I realized how lucky I am to have many people in my life who care about me. Many who have been there when I needed them most, whose lives and presence has changed me and likewise I have changed them. We have supported each other thru lifes crazy twists and turns. Maybe I am more blessed then I give myself credit for. Its not the life I would have chosen but it is turning out to be ok.
