Why am I so tired, like my brain is exhausted and I feel like I haven't slept. Last nights dreams where a little crazy, so maybe that has something to do with it. I mean dreaming that I woke up late for work, and then waking up from that dream thinking I was on time for work, and then waking up from that dream that I had gone back to bed and was late and then finally waking up for real is a bit exhausting to say the least. The other dream was a little closer to home. I was traveling Jerusalem/India with one of the few people I feel safe with. This person happened to be a guy, he was dating someone but because of all the harassment and what not he held me close and kept me safe. That is such a huge thing to me, if I feel safe around someone is a deal maker or breaker. Probably reading to many romance novels about the guy coming in and contributing what he can to an independent and strong women, letting her still have freedom and independence but being there for her as well. I think that is one of my biggest relationship fears, that I will have to give up one for the other… I can have a guy who is there for me or have a guy who will let me be free and independent…
Today I felt good mentally, like I am finally kicking the numbness and actually coming to life again. I pray that it lasts.
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