Somedays it feels like everything is mocking you. I go to church and they talk about how if you continue on there is hope & happiness ahead… You think to yourself where is your saving grace?
Growing up I was taught saving grace was for everyone, even when you thought it wasn't for you.
Today I realized, for me there is no "Balm in Gilead", no end to my suffering, if men are to have joy then where is mine? I am past broken, I have been beaten down, life has won. You feel so empty inside because you can't find that peace, I just want to not be a burden on anyone. I have continued on to long and can't find it in me to continue down this road like this unless something changes. I am to difficult to love, when its not the depression it is the anxiety, or the independence, or the boy is to good, or to bad. Does anyone understand me?
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